Never knew

I never knew that it would hurt me
this much when I heard
you do not know me anymore.

I never knew I would be this affected
when someone said
my name no longer send the same impact it did when we were together.

I never knew that missing you
would make me forget that
you were no longer mine.

I never knew that time wouldn’t make me completely free of you,
of your memories,
of our memories.

I never knew that when you called me that last time would be the very last time I will be hearing you…
calling me yours.

I never knew how deep
I have kept this feeling for the longest time.
And with just one dream
I’lol be pulled back
to my endless what ifs
my never ending should haves…

I never knew how much
I still love you until I heard from someone,
that I am just that someone,
someone forgettable,
someone regretable…